songs of a wounded healer

27 years old. doctor-in-the-making. wounded healer. hopeless romantic. hari ng sablay. a seed of hope waiting to spring. loves jason mraz. favorite song is "dare you to move." fan of sushi. currently has central obesity. a frustrated poet. wants to learn tennis. a mental health advocate. knows how to cook fillet dori with le'mon sauce. fan of lifehouse. a pediatric cancer advocate. dreams of becoming a five-star physician someday. wants to play the guitar. a dedicated friend. his motto is love strong. a knight of Christ. a frustrated Jesuit-wannabe. a soldier of hope. aka mr. brightside. in less than a year, he will hop, skip, jump and tell himself: "yeah, I made it."

We have done our part. Time has come. Please Lord, be with us in this leap of faith. =)

Sunday morning when we braved the rather busy streets of Quiapo, as part of our usual tradition whenever we would venture into something life-changing, such as the exams I am about to take.

The street was as active as it could be- from the vendors to the devotees themselves. The place was almost a city in itself. It had its own life.

In contrast to the chaos outside, the inside was still filled with people. But this time, they were in unison. Praying, singing and wishing.

In the sea of people, a person struck me. There was another reviewee from the review center I attended. I felt less alone. I was not the only in that church standing on the edge of uncertainty and hope. 

May God bless us.

He took his pain and turned it into something beautiful. Into something that people connect to. And that’s what good music does. It speaks to you. It changes you.
Hannah Harrington, Saving June (via buhaybabae)

(via buhaybabae)

We can never learn and relearn everything. We will always feel unprepared. We will have some regrets. But we can say we did our best and we need to give ourselves due credit.
Note to self as I approach the last few days

The last few minutes

And so we are down to the last two minutes of the basketball game. Down to the last few minutes before we finally reach the culmination of our five-year preparation for the medical board examinations. 

We will be taking our examinations for the twelve different subjects, composed of the basic sciences (Anatomy, Physiology, Biochemistry, Legal Medicine, Physiology and Pathology) and clinicals (Surgery, OB, Pedia, Medicine, Preventive Medicine, Pharmacology).

We began our review, facing that formidable task of synthesizing and collating all the information that we have. I was very fortunate to be enrolled in a review school, which guided me in my review. The whole three months was rigorous, both mentally and physically. 

During the start of our review, I wanted to defer and take the February boards instead, since, I feared that there is not much time to cram all the twelve subjects. However, just like in any battle and most of the battles that I have fought, I am usually half-armed when I wage a war. There is no way but through. 

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I was blessed to be able to listen to a talk by a doctor who passed the board exams just after his family was devastated by the Typhoon Yolanda in Leyte. He narrated how he had to deal with the uncertainty of the safety of his family in the midst the mental torture in his review. Yet, he made it. 

Eman Bautista is another success story. He is 65 years old when he took the Philippine Medical Board exams. He had struggles with finances and marital problems which deterred him from finishing the medical degree. I was amazed at how the brain of a 65 year old man can memorize tons of information for an examination like that. He spoke to us wearing his barong, and his stories of pain, laughter and hope. He even drew the heart of a patient with Tetralogy of Fallot.

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I pray for all the medical students taking the board exams this August 23rd. May God bless us all. 

If I just breathe, let it fill the space between.
Michelle Branch
This is my goal after the board exams. 

This is my goal after the board exams. 

It’s the feast day of my favorite saint. Please help me in my board exams. =)

It’s the feast day of my favorite saint. Please help me in my board exams. =)

The facial nerve has a very complicated course. I can do this, nevertheless. 

The facial nerve has a very complicated course. I can do this, nevertheless. 

One step at a time.

Blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge.
Paulo Coelho (via thresca)

(via bealightinthedark)

Keep calm. 30 days before board exams. Faith. Trust. Hope.

Those who are happy are not without pain, they just know how not to be controlled by it.
Love and Other Drugs, 2010
You know it only breaks my heart to see you standing in the dark. Waiting there for me to come back.
Plumb, Stranded 
Stop waiting on people to complete you, complete yourself.